lots of things...

The start of this year sorta blew, and then it rained. For like 10 days straight.

Today, the sun came out.

And now I feel like I need to get off my butt and get in gear. Many friends need extra love right now. Wedding planning help, illnesses, new babies, dogs sick, lots of things. I have been trying to make sure to take care of other people besides our family. Food, cookies, cards, whatever they need. I feel like people need to know they are cared for by others. I like this. It makes me feel good. Selfless and selfish all at once.

Now I need to walk. Walk far. Walk for a good cause or two. I'm inspired. A friend I know is walking in the March of Dimes walk. I want to. The breast cancer 2 day walk is coming up. I want to.

I need to make this happen. I've always wanted to. Dang it. I will. If not both, I will do one. I need to start somewhere. I want to show the girls how much a difference, no matter how small, we can all make.

Weirdest feeling ever...

I'm a New Years baby. And in 30 years... I have NEVER gone and done anything remotely cool for my birthday. LAME! I know! I had never been out of my town for my birthday.

Man, that's never going to happen again.

D and my sister planned the most amazing birthday party for me. Complete with my two best friends coming in from Arizona and LA to be there. Pretty much awesome!!! Limo, dancing, drinks, friends, and even my parents came! The whole nine yards. It was incredible. I am a lucky girl. I've never had so much fun! And all our friends who came said it was the best New Year for them too! That made me happy!

And now I'm in my 30s. WOW. I got old quick. D and I have been together for 11 years. My ENTIRE 20s. I got married, had all my kids in my 20s. What the heck am I gonna do in my 30s? I can't even think about it. I'm like... old. But, not. It's... weird.

I'm just wondering what to do with myself now.