Woosh!!!

Um, what just happened?

5 more school days, and Izzy will be done with kindergarten! 5 more school days, and G will be done with JUNIOR YEAR! Holy crap! I'm going to have a 1st grader and a SENIOR in HIGH SCHOOL in my house in a few months!

Oh. My.

I seriously can't believe it. Tabby will be ONE next month! What the hell? It's like a hand, and hair standing up straight, and WOOSH! CRAaaaaaaaaaaaaaaazy!

Izzy had an outstanding kindergarten year. I was so impressed with her teacher this year, I asked her to teach 1st grade so that I'd know Izzy was in good hands. She laughed. I wasn't kidding. I've been doing a lot of volunteering at her school. D too. We love it. It keeps us busy, and keeps us in the know and known around school. I like that. I wish more parents got involved, but to each his own.

G has had a better year this go around. I'm hoping she really shines senior year. I really want to see her do good things after high school and I'm getting a tad worried that she's just not prepared to go out in the real world. She has definitely come a long way. I remember like it was yesterday, pulling up in front of D's old house, and out walked a little girl in a plaid skirt, polo shirt and pony tail. I drove her to kindergarten that day.

I can't believe I'm going to do that again 3 more times. Wow.

babies are cool

I'm sitting here waiting for the baby to wake up. Funny that she decided NOW is a good time to nap! Considering I have a TON of stuff to do and she NEVER takes long naps these days. Bah.

Tabby's getting "bathtized"next weekend! That's how Izzy pronounces it. Not sure why she can't say BAP, but it's adorable so we won't even try to correct her. My last babe to get baptized. I am so happy, and so sad at the same time. Super emotional about all these "firsts" for her, but "lasts" for me. We gave away all the 0-6 month clothes and baby paraphernalia that we could find that we will never use, or need again. Swing, gone. Baby bouncer, gone. Baby bathtub, gone. (Insert tears here) She's such a little peanut, I loooooove her so much. Totally get the whole, BABY thing now. She's always going to be MY BABY. The little one, the last one, the youngest one. So blessed to have her here. She's totally completed our little family.

So now, it's me and D just figuring out how to raise all these crazy kids. Each one is totally different, totally unique, totally... awesome. It's very entertaining to watch the 3 little ones interact. Avery is such the little dominator. Already defending herself just like her mama. Izzy's the drama queen, and Tabby's the quiet one that just sits and stares at her crazy sisters like, "Oh man, I am sooo going to be the good one." I can hear Tabby now "duuuude mom's going to killlll you two!"

I can't wait. It's going to be so funny.

I never thought I'd love them...

And I can't stop watching them!!! Ahhhhhhh!

Reality Shows! Damn you Bravo and TLC and E! Evil evil little devils! I used to make fun of those crazy people who sat around at night and watched these lame shows, but they aren't lame! haha! They are like crack! I can't stop watching!!!

Like right now, I'm sitting here watching "Guiliana and Bill" on E! WHAT?!?! But I love them! They are like two D listers making money off ME! How cool am I for keeping their show on TV by watching marathons and TIVOing it! Actually, I don't TIVO them, but I DO TIVO "Keeping up with the Kardashians," and "Real Housewives of NY." But ONLY the NY chicks. The rest, are losers. Oh, god. Did I just acutally say that? Technically, no. I wrote it. So there.

I think it's really the train wreck factor. You want to look away, but you are afraid you'll miss something wildly entertaining, so you keep watching and watching and OH dang that was funny, so watch next week to see that train wreck again! It edidn't take me long at all to get hooked on those Kardashian sisters. And then one day, after their show was over, I just thought I'd watch a dab of Guiliana and Bill and again, hooked.

Next month the wives are coming! I am SO excited. And a bit of a loser. But, seriously! SO excited!!! Bethany rules!!!

Yeah yeah, I need to get a job or something.

lots of things...

The start of this year sorta blew, and then it rained. For like 10 days straight.

Today, the sun came out.

And now I feel like I need to get off my butt and get in gear. Many friends need extra love right now. Wedding planning help, illnesses, new babies, dogs sick, lots of things. I have been trying to make sure to take care of other people besides our family. Food, cookies, cards, whatever they need. I feel like people need to know they are cared for by others. I like this. It makes me feel good. Selfless and selfish all at once.

Now I need to walk. Walk far. Walk for a good cause or two. I'm inspired. A friend I know is walking in the March of Dimes walk. I want to. The breast cancer 2 day walk is coming up. I want to.

I need to make this happen. I've always wanted to. Dang it. I will. If not both, I will do one. I need to start somewhere. I want to show the girls how much a difference, no matter how small, we can all make.

Weirdest feeling ever...

I'm a New Years baby. And in 30 years... I have NEVER gone and done anything remotely cool for my birthday. LAME! I know! I had never been out of my town for my birthday.

Man, that's never going to happen again.

D and my sister planned the most amazing birthday party for me. Complete with my two best friends coming in from Arizona and LA to be there. Pretty much awesome!!! Limo, dancing, drinks, friends, and even my parents came! The whole nine yards. It was incredible. I am a lucky girl. I've never had so much fun! And all our friends who came said it was the best New Year for them too! That made me happy!

And now I'm in my 30s. WOW. I got old quick. D and I have been together for 11 years. My ENTIRE 20s. I got married, had all my kids in my 20s. What the heck am I gonna do in my 30s? I can't even think about it. I'm like... old. But, not. It's... weird.

I'm just wondering what to do with myself now.

Painful.

Teenagers=drama=pain in my head=alcohol.

I mean, I really can't even explain it better than that. DRAMA IS PAINFUL!

I feel so sorry for my parents. Seriously. If I was like this 14 years ago, I would think they would have offed me. I have no patience for it!!!

Amazing that one person can live in their own selfish bubble of bliss and be totally idiotic about it!

I need more alcohol...

Just can't hide it!!!

I'm SO excited!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

IT'S CHRISTMAS TIME!!!!!!

Well, technically... it's still Thanksgiving for 2.5 more hours, and THEN it's Christmas time! Yipeeeee!!!

For a period of time in my life, like between age 16-24 when I was a teenager, then a married person with no kids, I could care less about Christmas. But NOW! NOW! My kids think Christmas is the best thing on earth, and honestly so do I. Watching their faces, is the COOLEST thing! This year will be especially more fun because Avery is a bit older and she sort of has a clue about Christmas. That makes it that much more awesome! We're taking down all the decorations from the attic tomorrow, and then Izzy and I get to make a list of things that are broken, or what else we need more of, and then off to the store to get it! Yay!

I can't wait for Christmas. It's going to be the best Christmas ever. I've got my completed family of 6, and it's Tabby's 1st Christmas. Love love love love it!